Friday, October 23, 2009

Unfocused

My brain has been unfocused and oozy for the past few days, - no particular reason.
I did try to skip two days of my pain med, as I worry about its addictive nature. Those were two very painful days. The trouble is that the normal pain killers don't work anymore, even in combinations. I ended up staying mostly in bed both the days.

I read a P.D. James those two days.
I have just started on a Lionel Shriver. It is difficult to read two authors with such uncompromising personal writing styles one after the other.
This particular book of Shriver should be good - I love her writing - but so far seems to use very complicated language to convey a simple thought. Or may be my brain is all muddled.

I have a few ideas that I am trying to work through, but this is not the time. No energy, or at least very low energy.

There are some interesting threads running on the Bipolar Forum that I am a member of. Between them and the two Lupus Forums, I manage to communicate beyond the limits of my room.

Friends are a blessing, but I don't feel comfortable about initiating contact. They do their best to stay in touch. At our age everybody is mostly at the peak of their career and they need to work hard at staying there.

I miss my father. I need to see him, but I'll have to be prepared to face massive resistance before I can travel.


*A couple of hours out of the house, and I am diown with numbing pain, fever and brainfog.

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